different

Feeling empty inside. 





Ya Allah..


tunjukkan aku jalan yang benar


beri aku kekuatan menempuh jalanMu


teguhkan imanku dalam mematuhi perintahMu


jauhkan aku dari kemurkaanMu









Alhamdulillah.. aku masih aku. aku bukan orang lain. terasa lain aku dengan mereka. jauh meninggalkan aku. mungkin sebab aku yang terhegeh hegeh. :) at least i try to be a better person. at least? apa yang aku try? feel nothing rite now. just same as before. susah nak ikhlas. 

Syukur..

Alhamdulillah.. 

Aku tak sangka pulak dapat jugak Pinjaman Pendidikan Boleh Ubah (PPBU) dari Yayasan Bank Rakyat. Hehe. Tak sia sia aku terkejar kesana sini bergoogle cari pinjaman atau biasiswa yang boleh aku mintak. Alhamdulillah.. Lega rasanya boleh stop PTPTN dah lepas nih. Time abang aku dapat Pinjaman Kedah tu, rasa sedih sangat sebab aku tak dapat. Huhu. Tapi bila aku dapat PPBU nih, alhamdulillah! Boleh la ringankan sikit beban abah n mak. :)

Tapi bila fikir pasal final exam aku.. Sedih sangat. Wuwuwuu. Rasa macam aku kena repeat semua paper. Keketaran membuak buak terasa hingga ke hujung urat saraf. Menyesal aku berhoneymoon bagai nak rak. Memula target dean list, lepas dah lalui paper paper yang gilerous tuh.. Lulus tu dah kira terbaik bagi aku. T_T. 

:)

Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
They tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Mmm, on a holiday

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where was the passion when you need it the most?
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day, you see what you're like
And how does it feel a one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Examination

Assalamualaikum.



"harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi. membuatku terpuruk rasa ingin mati. derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir. hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku."



Pertama kalinya aku menangis, walaupun sikit. sebab tak dapat buat soklan exam. sudah la. malas pulak nak story.

Soklan BI

Assalamualaikum.

Taksat aku p jawab soklan Bahasa Inggeris Persediaan, LMT100. Haha. Nampak sangat tidak pandai english. Walau koyak rabak aku punya grammar, tetap jugak aku gagah menulis. Muehehe..

Soklan esei 1:

Ada patut tanya birthday terbest ever in aku punya life. Haha. Tak penah sambut eh besday aku. Eh, ada ada. Sekali. Member kesayangan di KMK nun. Huhu. 

Soklan esei 2:

Worst friend! Toodia, suruh describe the worst friend yang aku penah jumpak atas dunia nih. Haruslah takda. Haha.

Setelah habis memikir, aku pilih soklan no 2. Sebab soklan no 1 tu aku payah sikit nak pikiaq. Lagipun aku penah dah jawab soklan macam tu time trial spm? Mungkin. Haha. English aku terok, walau belajar sejak darjah 1. Tak penah nak cuba meningkatkan pengetahuan in english. Padanlah kan, sapa suruh malas.  -_-

FAKE

Its hurt when someone not telling the truth. It's all fake.


Peh. Sakit hati betoi. Tapi its okeh. At least aku tau dia menipu. Even aku tak tau dah berapa banyak dia bohong aku. Nasib baiklah aku tak percaya sangat dengan dia, lebih kurang 40% ja yang boleh dipercayai. HAHA. Nasib laa, sapa suruh bohong sangat kan.


Liar.

LOST

Assalamualaikum..


Hi, aku dah balik USM. Pulang dari bercuti. Merata aku pergi. Dan itu tidak aku rancang sama sekali. Baru nak mula study. Padahal final lagi dua hari. Selamba macam aku genius nak matis. 

Aku sedih.. Cincin aku hilang dekat rumah abang ipar aku. Dan aku sama sekali takkan pergi lagi ke rumah itu kerana abang ipar aku telah berpindah rumah. Sedih :'(. Aku sayang giler kat cincin tu. 

Hilangnya tiada ganti. Masih berharap aku akan jumpa dia kembali. Hopefully! Amin..